Easter Reflections

During this phase of my life I do a lot of reflection. On the past, on the present and definitely the future! I am starting to realize that I want to become the person God has created me to be in the second half of my life. I guess according to statistics my life is "half over". Ha ha. Sounds funny to me! I feel like a 20 year old.

Anyway, my mid life re-evaluation will be a productive healthy thing. I will not get tatoos or piercings or even a red corvette! (Although I really want a red Mini Cooper with white racing stripes!) I look at who I've been in the past, and sometimes with regret I mourn the loss of friends I've made irreversible mistakes with. I have learned from those mistakes and will NEVER make the same one twice. I do wish I could go back to my 20's sometimes and be less selfish. I didn't realize just how selfish I was then.

Now that I am older and hopefully wiser, I want God to make me the woman He wants me to be. I want to fulfill His purposes for my life. I want to reflect Him to those around me. Like the moon reflects the sun. I have no "light" in me other than His light. I think I can be a reflector! I can do that. I am submitted to Him and His will. Not much else matters to me.

In relationships, I am learning that God has a "will" for me too. Maybe I feel too much or too deeply sometimes, but I'd rather be a passionate person with real thoughts and opinions than a person without a "personality". I may not always agree with you but I will be agreeable, to the best of my ability. I want to be a light. Whatever it takes. I just don't want to fade into the background. I want to have a voice. I need to be heard...which is what Oprah says she has learned about every human being. We want to be heard.

My opinion is not more important than anyone else's though. If you differ, I am okay with that. I can differ with people and still be completely respectful of their personhood. If you disagree with me about an issue, it's okay, and I can hear and appreciate your opinion. I will not belittle you or make you feel bad for disagreeing with me. One thing we are all entitled to is an opinion, right?

So, since Jesus died to make my life and yours completely fulfilled and meaningful, let's stop bickering over petty things. His death, burial and ressurection was for more than this. It is not what the life in Christ is all about. I hope I can be a peacemaker and a light to those around me. Happy Easter friends!